Done.

Warning: this is a whiny post. Read at your own risk.

I love my daughter. She’s not even here yet, but I know that she’s going to be a pretty amazing kid. I can already tell that she’s kinda spunky, pretty sweet, and strong. She kicks and wiggles nearly non stop, but will calm down if I rub her back. Tonight her dad talked to her on the side of my belly where she isn’t laying, and she scooted over to get closer to his voice! She loves Need to Breathe and dances like crazy during the music at church. The cleft in her lip has grown together leading me believe that this little girl is a fighter like her momma. She’s going to be pretty special.

But…

I am so done being pregnant with her.

I’m done waking up in the middle of the night with heartburn. I’m miss getting up in the morning and going for a run. I need to eat food that has garlic in it, cause let’s face it, garlic is in everything delicious. I want to wear more than just the 6 skirts and dresses I own that still fit. I crave a Captain and diet – and preferably I’d enjoy that while standing in the back of a bar for a few hours at a local rock concert. I kinda like having ankles; more importantly, I like not having the skin on my ankles hurt from stretching to accommodate the swelling. I long for energy – yes, I know babies cause sleep deprivation – but now I get plenty of sleep and still can hardly function. I never want to cry again. I want to sleep on my stomach. I’d love to have the mental capacity to read an actual book! It’d be lovely to bend over or get out of the car without breaking a sweat.

I’m am beyond grateful that I was able to be pregnant, but now, at 35 weeks, I’m just done. Can any active moms relate?

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Falling Apart and Feeling Good.

I’m sitting here on the couch just laughing at myself and the pitiful state I’m in. Baby has lodged her foot/feet under my rib and it’s been there all. day. long. Don’t worry, I’m Googling solutions for this.

On top of that, I think I may have SPD (symphisis pubis dysfunction). It’s when the hormone called relaxin, which is supposed to loosen up your joints for labor, kicks in a bit too soon and spreads your pubic bones apart causing pain in the public area and inner thighs. sometimes I can hardly move because my groin area has cramped up so bad, and other times it doesn’t bother me at all. So far it definitely KILLS to go up stairs, roll over in bed at night, and to squat to pick something up.

I’m pretty pathetic!

Somehow, however, I was able to run this past Saturday! I woke up early and got dressed for running group. I had planned to walk 2-3 miles. Then it started raining. I figured that if I was going to go to running group in the rain, I may as well try to run. And I did! I put on some music and ran one song then walked one song for 3 miles! I felt great afterward because I really took it easy. I may try again tomorrow. I miss running so much!

I’ve been eating kind of okay lately. I’ve decided that it’s hard to eat healthy when you gain weight and feel fat and can’t enjoy exercising anyway. I really, really, need to cut out the sugar from my diet. I’m done with one of my part time jobs now so maybe next week, when I have a new meal plan and a little more time, I’ll really focus on my diet and eat better. I made some great meals this past week or so (take a look below), but then husband and I went to the drive in movies on Saturday night (junk food dinner, popcorn, and candy – it was a double feature), I picked up Noodles and Company for lunch while I was out running errands Sunday (1,000 calories for mac and cheese. Whoa), and yesterday I skipped dinner and had popcorn at candy at the movies instead (Mother’s Day treat with mom, sis and niece – thanks Dad!). Maybe I just need to stop going to the movies??

Here was dinner for the week:

Crockpot Carne Guisada (Latin Beef Stew) with brown rice and corn on the cob

Crockpot Carne Guisada (Latin Beef Stew) from Skinnytaste

Turkey Burgers with Zucchini with baked (grilled actually) sweet potatoes

Turkey Burgers with Zucchini from Skinnytaste

20 Minute Skillet Chicken and Spinach Parmesan with whole wheat spaghetti and steamed fresh green beans

20 Minute Chicken and Spinach Parmesan from Mom on Time Out

It was all DELICIOUS.

Breakfasts have been cereal with almond milk, and lunches have been sandwiches, fruit and almonds typically for a snack. Just that dang sugar. It’s making me and baby too fat…

Last but not least, this update was one of the biggest highlights of my week – for my first Mother’s Day, husband booked me a one hour prenatal massage. It was glorious. I had no idea that I was in so much pain until it was gone! I had my massage yesterday morning and since then (besides the aforementioned issues), I have been able to move around so much better and easier. I have a ton more energy and I even slept through the night last night. 7 hours straight! It had been months. Next pregnancy, I’m getting more massages, and much earlier. I am a changed woman!

What’s new in your world?

Excuses

If you are looking for a good one, pregnancy should do the trick. As if I wasn’t getting fat and lazy enough already, the doctor just told me I need to take things easier. And here I thought I was going to be one of those fit pregnant people that ate just as good as when marathon training, and go for a 3 mile run the day labor began. So much for those dreams.

I spent the afternoon in labor and delivery because I was so swollen yesterday that I ripped the thigh of my pants when I sat down at work. Not the inside part that often gets torn up from thighs rubbing together, the outside stitching about halfway down the thigh. Busted right through my maternity pants. One of the three pair that still fit (or so I thought!).

After I got home, I realized that I hardly felt the baby move all day. She’s normally doing Tae Bo or something in there, so it was odd that I didn’t feel much of anything all day. I poked and pushed at her and got no response. I woke up in the middle of the night and didn’t feel her kicking. Really abnormal. I didn’t feel her much this morning either. Called the doctor, and she told me to go to labor and delivery for a non stress test and an ultrasound.

Thank the Lord that everything came back great. Her heart rate is strong and she’s moving like crazy. I’m not sure why I don’t feel her as strongly as I did just a few days ago but she’s just fine.

She had been diagnosed with cleft lip (and probably palate) at our 20 week ultrasound, and I got to see her lip again today. The cleft is very small, the two sides of the cleft are actually almost touching. Sadly, this means nothing for the outcome of the palate, but we’re still praying that it won’t be involved at all – and that the lip would be fully healed before birth too!

Lots of good news.

And then there’s the baby’s weight. They estimate her to be measuring about 3-6 days ahead and she’s about 4 lbs, 11 oz already putting her a little above average, in the 54 percentile. Since I don’t care to deliver a 9lb baby, the nurse said I really need to watch what I eat. Drastically reduce my sugar intake (wah!), watch my sodium (will help with swelling – although I don’t eat much salt to begin with), and focus on veggie and fruits (natural diuretics) and lean protein.

So my husband is going to help keep me accountable on the sugary stuff, and I’m hoping that I can stay on track with balanced meals, and just cooking for myself in general, by going public with it here. I have made pregnancy an excuse not to keep up with my healthy diet, so it ends today!

Speaking of, I’ve got a Latin Beef Stew in the crock pot that smells amazing. Almost dinner time now, I’ll have to let you know how it turns out!

Zombie Blog

I’m resurrecting my blog. It’s been at least a year! And a crazy one!

I ran the Chicago Marathon. It was awful and wonderful and I’m sure I’ll do it again someday. It took me just over 6 hours to finish because I lost steam after I used the bathroom at mile12. Everything from my hips down cramped up. I stood on a street corner crying to my husband for at least 15 minutes around mile 16. I struggled through the rest of the race but finished!

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I was really disappointed in myself and frustrated by my performance. My training had gone really well and a few weeks before the marathon, I completed my 20 mile run in about 4 hours, 20 minutes. And I felt great after that, and knew I could have pushed my pace more (I sprinted the last quarter of a mile!). Two days later, everything made sense.

I found out I was pregnant!

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Now granted, I was only 3 weeks along, and the embryo would have just been embedding itself, but I think that the hormone shift and the change in blood flow really messed up my running ability!

I’ve been sporadically running since I found out I was pregnant – anywhere from 1-5 miles 1-3 days a week. I always thought I’d be a fit pregnant woman, but morning sickness did me in. For over 3 months all I could stomach was potatoes, chicken, bread, cheese, and bananas. I only threw up once, but I had severe nausea 24/7.I tried to keep running, but I was exhausted. I probably ran once every week or two.

Once I got to 21 weeks (6 months) along, I started to feel better and went back to my normal diet – lots of fruits and veggies, lean meat, some good carbs. I tried to get back into running, but it was February and I live near Chicago. It was freezing cold and just happened to be the 3rd snowiest February in Chicago’s history. Not ideal conditions for running 6 months pregnant!

An easy 3 miles on vacation in Florida around 22. A glorious, sunshiney day!

An easy 3 miles on vacation in Florida around 22. A glorious, sunshiney day!

Today, I’m 8 months along. As happy as I am just to be pregnant, and that I’m only 8 weeks away from meeting our little girl, I have to say that I really dislike being pregnant. I’m used to being self sufficient and independent. Pregnant, I feel weak and out of control. I can no longer handle normal physical demands. Like yanking sleeping 4 year olds off their cots after rest time at work. Like painting shelving in the baby’s closet. Like walking or running (although I still try!). I basically don’t have an immune system. I’ve been sick 4 times in the last 6 months. Two bad colds and two different variations of the flu. My allergies are going crazy now and I can’t take anything for them! I toss and turn all night an can’t remember the last time I woke up in the morning feeling rested. I can’t stand the smell of garlic or onions so eating normal foods is a huge issue. Simply put, the end of June can’t come fast enough.

From our shower this past weekend. It's a girl!

From our shower this past weekend. It’s a girl!

I needed to get that out there. And that’s why I’ve brought 35workouts back to life. I need a place to process. And hopefully, in a couple months, I’ll be back to working out and cooking great meals. Feel free to follow along or ignore my rantings completely, it’s up to you, but I”m interested to see where I end up!

Happily Running in a Polar Vortex

Polar Vortex 13 (I’ve lost count…) has settled into the Chicago area. In the middle of summer. I could very easily complain about the cold weather (like I literally just had to get up and close the windows so my hands wouldn’t be too cold to type) but it’s made for  some PERFECT running weather! After my awful 10 miler on Saturday, I was a little anxious about my next couple runs. Well, I worried for no reason at all. They were wonderful! Yesterday, I had an easy 3 mile run on the training schedule. I started off faster than I meant to but I was able to not just keep my pace up, but get faster! And I lied about the weather a little. Today was perfect running weather, yesterday was 71 degrees and 91% humidity. Not ideal. but check out these splits!

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This morning, in 55 degrees and 65% humidity, I ran a 5 miler with (at least for me) even better times!

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An 8 minute, 25 second pace for an entire mile!? Yes! I promise, I’m not sharing these to brag, I just would’ve never thought I could accomplish something that “athletic”. I’m amazed that my body is capable of running a mile in less than 8 1/2 minutes after already running 4. 10 year old Megan would have been a very different person if she knew she could someday do that!

Anyway, I’m not sure if it’s the weather, or if I’m finally getting back in shape, but I’m feeling strong. And I like it. I did go to yoga last night for the first time in a couple months. I know it helped loosen me up. More stretching will be in order in the future. It’s probably just the endorphins but I’m so excited that all the hard work is finally beginning to pay off!

Any other runners taking advantage of this cool weather streak?

Monday Meal Plan 7/14

Can you believe it’s already the middle of July?? This summer is flying by! I sat my butt (which is getting more and more toned every day, hooray!) on the couch most of the weekend and happily wasted it… At least it was raining and cloudy all day Saturday. I got a few good naps in too, and planned out all of our meals for the week. Here’s what’s on the menu:

Breakfasts:

Avocado, Chopped Hardboiled Egg and Mozzerella on Toast, with a Banana

On Rest Days – Chocolate Peanut Butter Banana Protein Shake

(Sorry, I don’t have recipes for either of these, I’m kinda just throwing some things together and hoping for the best. I’ll add recipes later this week if they turn out well and I remember!)

 

Lunches:

Dinner leftovers and…

Avocado and Apple Chicken Salad over Spring Mix Greens (I never made this last week…)

 

Dinners:

Polenta with Roasted Red Peppers and Fontina (and I’m adding crumbled Sweet Italian Turkey Sausage to the skillet mix)

 

Biggest Loser’s Sexy Joe’s on a Whole Wheat Bun with Cauli-Tots (I’m making 6 servings out of the Sexy Joe Filling)

Avocado Chicken Parmigiana with Steamed Green Beans and Carrots

 

All of these meals are about 330 calories each. 3 meals a day at 330 calories each = 990 calories, plus a 240 calorie afternoon snack, and a 200 calorie dessert each day, brings me my goal total of 1430 calories per day. Just like last week, I also planned my carbs around my runs. I’m excited to give this diet plan a real chance this week since it’s a more “normal” week for me.

What’s on your meal plan this week?

Life is busy, training is good.

It’s been an insanely busy week! Wednesday we went to the Taste of Chicago to see AWOLNATION after work, Thursday I worked all evening, Friday I work a full day, then went to see Red Wanting Blue at Lincoln Hall in Chicago. Yesterday, Saturday, I ran, then spent a good portion of my day driving my husband and his car around in an attempt to get a passing emissions test before his plates expire. (Not successful, btw). In the midst of this, I got my act together and did a lot of things really well, and a few things not so well. Let’s start with the good.

At the Taste!

At the Taste!

Wednesday morning, I got up early and went to the gym for a weight lifting session. I spent about 45 minutes there and felt like I got in a really good workout. The best part was being able to increase the weight on two of the leg machines I use. I can really see the progress of my weight lifting, just once a week, and I suddenly have defined muscle in my shoulders, legs, and my stomach is flat for the first time since I was 15! I should take some pics to share. If you’re trying to lose weight, you really need to be lifting weights. The times that I do are the times I see myself getting fit and toned.

Thursday, I was physically just tired. I decided to listen to my body and get more sleep and take it easy that morning. I skipped my 3 mile “hard” run. I felt a little bad about it, but I was really careful all week to stick to my meal plan all week (I even packed salads to bring to the concert!) so I knew that skipping one workout wasn’t going to mean gaining 2 lbs this week, nor would it throw off my marathon training completely.  It’s didn’t. What really could have thrown off my marathon training was what I did Friday, and what happened Saturday…

Friday, all day, I was craving my favorite candy, Jr. Mints. So I skipped my afternoon snack and had a box of them instead. Not great, but I didn’t give up my entire “diet” either. I had my normal dinner later that evening and a healthy breakfast the next morning. Back to Friday night. The short story is that I went to a concert, had 3 drinks (and the first one was very strong), didn’t get to bed until 2am.

Saturday, I woke up at 6 so I could run at 6:30. It was supposed to thunderstorm, but hadn’t started raining yet so my running group still met for our 10 mile run as planned. As soon as we started it began to rain. It got harder, then lighter, then harder, but never stopped. I ran 10 miles in the (sometimes pouring) rain, on 4 hours of sleep, hungover. It was miserable. At one point (mile 8) I could’ve walked faster than I was “running”. But I never did stop, my times were terrible, the rain messed up my phone (hence the two pictures below – did you know water can “press” buttons on your phone and stop your Run Keeper? Neither did I.), but I kept going. I’d read in Runner’s World magazine just Friday night that it’s good to train tired, hungry, in the rain, the heat, etc. because it forces your body to adapt to non-ideal conditions. I’m curious to see how my runs this week go now.

First half of my 10 miler

First half of my 10 miler

Second half of my 10 miler

Second half of my 10 miler

You can see how, although slow as molasses, I did alright the first 6 miles. I was at least consistent. Miles 7 and 8 were my worst. I think at mile 9 I saw lightening and got my pace back up out of fear fo my life. Technically, my only goals yesterday were to finish, and not get struck by lightening. Check, and check. I win!

Anyone else get a long run in this weekend? In the rain? (Are you sick of the rain as much as I am!?)